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We all live by our own decisions. Our choices in life makes us the person we want to be.

People come and go. Some people are meant to stay, some choose to go. Some people teach you a lesson some people, choose to grow with you.

I never thought that my relationship with my long time best friend who became my lover will come to an end. People say that we we’re lucky because of how our relationship grew into an envious kind of love story.

He was my college friend turned into a best friend and became my everything. Our love story did not start right yet it was imperfectly perfect. I was single, he was in a relationship with his ex and I found myself unexpectedly falling in love with him. It was so wrong my mind was battling with my heart. I had a hard time concentrating for our Philippine Nursing Licensure Examination last 2015. It really is hard to fight with our feelings especially when you find yourself falling with the person you can’t be with. It makes you fall in love more deeply with that person and that’s when I knew I really fucked up. I’ve been there and it was too risky I had to break down my walls and manners just because I followed my heart. I never regret doing that because at that moment, I knew it was all worth the risk. You were worth it because, you were my bestfriend.

You were my first love, I was your 7th and hopefully your last. We used to be so happy and even promised ourselves that nothing will keep us apart. I have a lot of questions on my mind and still hoping we could fix it but things are blurry right now and I can’t see clear.

Here I am, drowning at my own mistakes in life and i’m feeling helpless. I know that nobody can help but me.

People say if you love someone, you want him to be happy so you let him go and you do that even if it’s the HARDEST thing to do. The only person you thought could take care of you suddenly disappears and you have nothing left. Only sadness and loneliness was left because you gave everything to the person you love the most.

I am now left with nothing but myself. I even forgot how to stand up alone for I was too serious about you being my last.

Our story will be forever in my heart and it was a beautiful kind of pain. It may seem crazy but there will always be a part of me that only YOU can fix.

and if ever you will come back… i’m hoping that my heart still belongs to YOU.

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16 Unconventional Signs You’ve Found Your Soulmate

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1. You’ve split up — often unpredictably and unexpectedly. Soul mates rarely experience “happily ever after” right away, despite what media and culture tells us. Often the meeting is too intense to absorb immediately, and you have to separate for a while. You find your way back though.

2. They’ve changed you for the better. The people who we are affected by the most are the ones who have changed us just by their presence in our lives overhauling everything we thought we knew and wanted. It’s not a bad thing, this is supposed to happen, usually.

3. You recognize a family member in them. This sounds strange, but in my best friends and romantic partners, I can always tell they’re going to be someone to me upon first meeting because they instantly remind me of my mom or dad or sibling — not in a creepy way, in a…

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The Truth About Meeting Someone At The Wrong Time

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Timing is something that none of us can seem to get quite right with relationships. We meet the person of our dreams the month before they leave to go study abroad. We form an incredibly close friendship with an attractive person who is already taken. One relationship ends because our partner isn’t ready to get serious and another ends because they’re getting serious too soon.

“It would be perfect,” We moan to our friends, “If only this were five years from now/eight years sooner/some indistinct time in the future where all our problems would take care of themselves.” Timing seems to be the invariable third party in all of our relationships. And yet we never stop to consider why we let timing play such a drastic role in our lives.

Timing is a bitch, yes. But it’s only a bitch if we let it be. Here’s a simple truth…

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8 Girls You Should Never Let Yourself Fall In Love With, For Any Reason

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The Girl Who Treats You Like A Brother: She crashes on your couch or in your bed whenever she wants, and is happy to help you navigate the waters of what to wear. She’ll laze through your life as if it is her own, and always mentions that she’s so glad you guys are good friends. (You’ll hear the emphasis on the good, not the friends, and it will make you feel hopeful.) No matter how much you think that all of these are open invites, she’s still going to also ask for your advice when it comes to other guys she’s into. Trying to get on that roster always seems like a pipe dream because the guys she “goes for” are nothing like you. No matter how much you’d like to convince her that dating to type is bad, that’s a path of self-destruction she’s going to have…

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11 Excellent Quotes From Game Of Thrones To Get You Ready For The Season Finale

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Remember what you are and what you are not. — Ramsay
Nothing isn’t better or worse than anything. Nothing is just nothing. — Arya
A man with no motive is a man no one suspects. Always keep your foes confused. — Lord Baelish
Turns out, far too much has been written about great men and not nearly enough about morons. Doesn’t seem right. — Tyrion
Tis a big and beautiful world. Most of us live and die in the same corner where we were born and never get to see any of it. I don’t want to be most of us. — Prince Oberyn
I will not become a page in someone else’s history book. — Stannis
The world is overflowing with horrible things, but they’re all a tray of cakes next to death. — Olenna Tyrell
Arya Stark: You’re fine with murdering little boys, but thieving is beneath you?

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What You Learn From The One Who Won’t Love You Back

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He will never love you back because you’re not what he’s looking for. You’re just nice to have for the now because you’re always available. You’re the one before he finds the actual one. You’re the intermission number for the main event. You’re the half-time before the game starts. You’re one of his options but not his priority. You’re his back-up plan.

He invests time in you because he has no one else. He stays with you because you’re willing to make out with him. He pretends to love you because he knows you’ll fall for it. And you did.

You fall for him because he makes you feel like you’re the only one. Well, you are. But that’s until he can find someone else. Not even someone else better. Just someone else. You fall for him because he holds your hand and he intertwines his fingers with yours. You…

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Here’s To The Ones Who Want To Take Things Slow

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Here’s to the ones who take it slow.

Not because they don’t like you and they’re trying just to delay the inevitable. They’re not trying to let you down easy when they say they want to go slow — really, it’s the opposite, because they like you so much, and that’s terrifying to say. That’s too much, too soon, isn’t it? Is it everything they’re fighting against? Is that what they call ironic?

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And it’s not because they’re unsure about you. They’re as sure as anyone ever could be that this is something special, that this could be something real. They’re not sure that you think so, too, but they’re hopeful, you know. That you could feel this way, that this could be something more than a crazy little crush, a silly little fling. Here’s to the ones who want it to last longer than that…

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